I Will Not Fall

I  Will Not Fall

by Brother Dash

The street sweats lust
And I have no raincoat
The darkness starts to choke me
Air so wet that I might drown
The only light in the dark
Are the neon signs
Dunya! Dunya!
OPEN ALL NIGHT
Step inside temptation
There’s a seat at the bar
Watch and lick your lips
As the sizzurp gets poured
The man on the tele said my brother threw a rock
But there’s a battle in that glass
Between the hand and the glass
And the hand in the glass
They say it tastes so sweet
And life is so bitter
My tongue starts to drool
I reach for that drink
But wait…
If I Fall
Will I Get Up?
If I Fall
Will I Get Up?

Yeah as I walk through the valley
The shadow of death
Is the wind and the mountains
I think they fear me
I hope that believer didn’t see me
But they tell me an angel did
Did he tell the mountain maker that I smell like sin?
Bloodshot eyes
These bloodshot eyes
I pretend that I’m wearing rose colored glasses
But the lens is too thick
My vision is blurry
Street preacher said for me to “Stay focused man”
But I wanna leave, I’m outta sync, and I’m a boy in a body
The world is so cold but can’t shut my windows
I shudder to shutter the shutters and I shut her
Outta my house I shut her outta my room
My bed is so lonely
It’s crowded with the clutter of me
He whispers in my ear “I love mortals in heat”
So I reach for the blunt of resentful rage
I lift but it slips to the floor and I crawl
I see my face in the piss
And I scream to the walls
If I Fall
Will I Get Up?
If I Fall
Will I Get Up?
Head nods in the distance
Theme songs of the lost and the wrong
I should be sleepy at dawn
And eat veggies at sundown
I hate who I be but I ‘m lovin’ me
I flee to comfort zones
Where I can judge then dismiss
That place where I’m god and shaytaan is my muse
Don’t hate me for a verse that we both consumated
Judgmental holy rollers spittin’ phlegm on my wounds
Can’t they see the stretch marks of my tortured prostration?
Negation of trips I slip on fruit peels?
Whether on the midnight asphalt or desert steps
Temptation ain’t a flower on pedestrian highways
So I need to stop walkin’
Whether asleep or awake
I need to stop rhymin’ start climbin’ those peaks
Not ‘cause they’re there
‘Cause I trust  ‘Cause I must!
They may laugh they may cheer
They may sing they may mock
I care not
With these hands my ego will scale
These mountains are mine
My tears know them well
My teeth bit those rocks
But them stones are the stairs
And success is the sojourn
So again I will climb
Again I will strive
Fight, claw, reach, scratch, pull, cling, sing!
I will not fall
I will get up
I will not fall
I will get up!
(Repeat)